Friday, April 28, 2006

The Same Ol' Situation

Greetings and welcome back to The Un-Zone, the semi-regularly updated site on the Internet devoted to all things related to Un. It's time for one of those updates that people of a certain personality type read on a regular basis.

Lately, I feel like, to quote from Motley Crue (can't get the damn umlauts to show up), "It's the same ol,' same ol' situation. It's the same ol', same ol' ball and chain." I fell like I'm living the same day over and over again, just like Groundhog Day on an eternal spin cycle. Just like "Ants Marching" sung by Dave Matthews:
He wakes up in the morning
Does his teeth bite to eat and he’s rolling
Never changes a thing
The week ends the week begins

Iron Maiden also explains this well. I've got the strange feeling I've done this before:
When you see familiar faces,
But you don't remember where they're from,
Could you be wrong?
When you've been particular places,
That you know you've never been before,
Can you be sure?
'Cause you know this has happened before,
And you know that this moment in time is for real,
And you know when you feel Deja vu.
Chorus:
Feel like I've been here before,
Feel like I've been here before.
Ever had a conversation,
That you realise you've had before,
Isn't it strange?
Have you ever talked to someone,
And you feel you know what's coming next?
It feels pre-arranged.
'Cause you know that you've heard it before,
And you feel that this moment in time is surreal,
'Cause you know when you feel deja-vu

Just like the song by Madness, "Tomorrow's Just Another Day" and it never seems to end. Same thing over and over again:
Listened long, tried to take it in
All these facts leave me in the swim
It’s down and down there is no up
I think that I’ve run out of luck.
I hear them saying
Tomorrow’s just another day
I hear them saying
And it gets better every day
I hear them saying
Tomorrow’s just another day
Tomorrow’s just another... day
Walking now, over covered ground
There is a chance if I move around
I need a moment to reflect
On the friendships I have wrecked.
Why is it i, don’t I always try ?
I hear them say
Tomorrow’s just another day
I hear them say
And it gets better every day
I hear them say
Tomorrow’s just another day
I hear them say
And it gets better every day
I heard them say
Tomorrow’s just another day
I hear them say
Tomorrow’s just another day
Tomorrow’s just another...
I hear them saying
Tomorrow’s just another day
I hear them saying
And it gets better every day
I hear them saying
Tomorrow’s just another day

If I'm not bored out of my mind living this life, I wonder if this is even right for me. I wonder why am I in law school. i've been wondering for the longest time. I don't know if I'm going to be happy with this path and that's scary...at least for me. To use John Mayer's "Why, Georgia Why":
But all I feel’s alone
It might be a quarter-life crisis
Or just the stirring in my soul
Either way
I wonder sometimes
About the outcome
Of a still verdictless life
Am I living it right
Am I living it right
Am I living it right
Why, why georgia, why
So what so I’ve got a smile on
It’s hiding the quiet superstitions in my head
Don’t believe me
Don’t believe me
When I say I’ve got it down
Everybody is just a stranger
But that’s the danger in going my own way
I guess it’s a price I have to pay
Still everything happens for a reason
Is no reason not to ask myself
If I’m living it right
Am I living it right
Am I living it right


All of this is making me want to take the following miracle drug (it's a joke but I wish it was real)

That's all for now.

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